Trying to Make It

I'm glad school is about to be over.

I literally have to keep my butt off the streets because my dad may die within a year.

Job

I want an office job until I can get a job in music.

Gym

I'm quitting that gym I go to online because it is mostly leg work and repetitive, not quite the workout I had hoped for.

Job

School ends next week, and then I can try to find a job.  I want to move to Fort Lauderdale, Southeastern Florida or Germany at least eventually.

"What a Life!"

Do I have any hope of experiencing Late Boomers in the orchestra if I am still intermediate on violin?  Am I working towards anything?  It may be the ultimate goal, but do I need to take a step down?

I know.

It's the end of Generation X.  Make way for Late Boomers and the generation's kids of Generation Z and YZ.

No Call Back for Job

in sales

I'm right.

I'm kinda here to do my business, not let people bump me off because they're German.

Many people may be wrong, but I have always been a right kind of person.

I know people were different and pretended to change overnight, like I don't deserve anything.

Disgusted

Why do Germans think they can come out and suddenly attack a nice person like me and whine like I should know?  I don't care if you think you're playing a game in some way.  I guess this is just worthless.

The Irish

What's the holdup?  Trying to attract them over me?  They're too set in their ways for how they want to keep Irish Americans from relating with Germany.  That's probably the worst of it, in a way.

A Question Unanswered and Postponed

So, do those mean English people think they fit the definition of German over the Irish in too many ways?  Germany is not a perverted interest to worship, it's a country in Europe that made itself teased by Jews somehow "spotting them out" like everyone should stop what they're doing and get at the Germans maybe because of the ones more influentially involved in WWI and WWII.

Will Stop at Nothing

I guess people are upset at me getting anything and overly proud of the age of their parents.

They think they can do anything and be happy with this goal in mind that I will pretty much not get anything in life I worked for because of things like my race.

But I Made It

People just  want me out and won't leave me alone.

Just because I feel accepted in some way by Europeans doesn't mean everyone needs to cross examine me and say that's pretty much everyone mad at me and too many people shouting at the same time that I have no business with Europe.

Assurance

Other people have a given guarantee to get it easy.

Like Only Some Are, Like, "Getting Away With It?"

How did all those army-looking young men in the US get so much respect like they're German or over and above other people in the US?

I have German-American in-laws from my aunt.  I think it's that they can't say anything else about their heritage.

I think it's weird to say someone's not good enough if they're not all German,

I know my friend seemed to have a hard time when she tried because she's 40% German.  My other friend seemed not to even try but has a cool Lithuanian mom and is from Massachusetts.  She thought it was cool I was told I was French.  I am wondering if I'm about 30% Irish and 20% German but might be some Italian instead.  I dunno, maybe I really am Dutch and French, too.  Maybe, even my dad's dad is all Irish.

I thought people were nice and connected to Black Americans.

I don't really submit to England ruining it for Irish Americans, warning them about Germany like they get it better.  I also don't submit to Irish people acting like I'm all Irish and don't deserve to be respected.  I'm actually 1/2 Asian.

Sales Interview Tomorrow

I also found a nice apartment by the beach in Fort Lauderdale for only $1,400 a month for a studio and not much more if I need 1 bedroom to store things etc. It's fancy and has great amenities.


I have to support myself and move out because my dad is only getting worse. Sad. I am kinda happy, though, about moving and supporting myself.

I should also get a car and learn to drive places. I found this place close to the apartment.

My dad might get a work from home business I think job. Great while he's sick.

Plan

I'm looking for a sales type job in Fort Lauderdale, Southeastern Florida which is more than sitting at a desk selling something easy to people not working.  I found a nice apartment by the beach that's affordable.  It's a great apartment.  It's affordable for its locale.

Some Europeans

Some Europeans want power so they can feel like the cute one.  They might be planning to stimulate Germany.

Mistake

Now, they're encouraging people to like only Late Boomers.

They discourage nice people from Generation XY, who are more model citizens from others and others of their generation.

They think people are bad if they are normal and only like people who act out and bother others, like people who talked during class at school growing up.  People frame and abandon their friends with nothing, too.

Do you feel connected to your parents's heritage or your own?

I went Up North to New York state and Pennsylvania, and they feel like magic and at will.. well make me feel warm and fuzzy.

I had friends and I noticed I connect better to Massachusetts in some ways.